The way I want to constantly edify you: you have been uniquely wired and uniquely gifted by God. You’ve been drawn to certain hobbies, drawn to certain habits, placed in certain neighborhoods and given certain positions so that you might reflect the grace and mercy of Jesus Christ in powerful ways to the world around you.
So that, my hope is: you wouldn’t be so bored in life but rather would enjoy the life you’ve been given as you see the eternal weight of it.

And so when you love creation rather than the Creator, you’re trying to get from creation what creation cannot give you, and so you’re going to hit a ceiling and grow frustrated in that ceiling and be forced to medicate. Some of us are going to medicate with drugs and alcohols. Some of us are going to medicate with sex. Some of us are going to medicate with lust. Most of us are going to medicate with trinkets and toys. There is an emotive response to new trinkets, new toys, new clothes, and my guess is new lovers. There’s an excitement, an energy, a joy, but if we can be straight, that emotive response fades and leaves us right where we are before the new trinket, before the new toy, before the new job, before the new clothes, before the new lover. And we’re now forced to go find another one, and maybe it needs to be bigger; maybe it needs to be more perverse; maybe it needs to be in order to get that same high. And so we end up living extremely foolish lives.

surrender

http://www.thevillagechurch.net/article-stories/justin-beatty/

“What I really realized was that it was the first time I had truly surrendered everything. There was no Jesus I give you all but…,” he said. “It was everything.”

BETTER THAN I DESERVE

i need to trust God more. this right now, is not really going according to plan, or what i had in mind but this is God's plan.

why is life sometimes so uuuggghhh

http://pacificcrossroads.org/blog/ten-maxims-toward-contentment/

When we confess those sins, we receive forgiveness and cleansing from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9).

Because of that, you, if you are a Christian, have freedom from the fear, shame, and condemnation of sin. Your sins and the sins done against you do not define you. Your identity is as a redeemed, reconciled, justified, cleansed son or daughter of our loving Father. You can be bold in confessing and confronting real sin because the grace God gives is real.

return to your first love.

the joy of your heart.

Jesus Christ.

surrender. and commit all your ways to him.

1 peter 3:4

Let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God’s sight is very precious.

A true beauty clings to God’s promises for her life and believes them as the most important thing about her.

peace. i pray for peace.

mercies in disguise

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the achings of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy

satan is really trying to attack me right now

hrmm i wonder what he finds so appeasing in

tempting and tormenting me.

why are you so afraid of me doing well and growing

and letting go of the past?

Spirit now living
And dwelling within me
Keep my eyes fixed
Ever on Jesus' face
Let not the things of this world
Ever sway me
I'll run 'til I finish the race

2 eCount it all joy, my brothers,2 when you meet trials fof various kinds, 3 for you know that gthe testing of your faith hproduces steadfastness. 4 And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be iperfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

7 Be patient, therefore, brothers,1 until the coming of the Lord. See how the farmer waits for the precious fruit of the earth, being patient about it, until it receives kthe early and the late rains. 8 You also, be patient. lEstablish your hearts, for the coming of the Lord mis at hand.

James.