identity

the entrance of the three girls changed the whole atmosphere.
i felt frozen in my steps, these three walking towards me. the place suddenly felt unfamiliar.
i dreaded what would have to come next. a fake and awkward encounter of catching up.
it feels like i never left. it feels like ive been stuck here all along.
i thought i left it all behind with the rest of my childhood memories.
tucked away, dust building.
i act normal.
but she suddenly changes into a person i dont recognize.
someone that i wasnt just talking to.
the countenance turns hard.
she turns her back to me and takes a lit cigarette out of the other girl's hand.
she has total control over the situation.
no nerves show. confidence screams out of her stance.
she inhales.
and its over.
the transformation is complete.
yet it is over before it even started.
changed and back in the blink of an eye.


why do i not have a rebellious bone in my body?
it doesnt seem normal.